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HELLOS!

2009-05-05T01:48:00.000-07:00

well , it is INDEED again that i have since BLOGGED ... well , this post is dedicated to DEXTER LIAN YING SHENG .
why ? cos dunoo why also ... but since he wants it , so give him one post lorh ... hahs ...
but recently , in school and personal life , very complicated ... even though i kno wthat i should be studyong now , but i am slacking ... tmr havin a chem test and i AM NOT PREPARED for it ... wad should i do man ... ar ! damn stressed ???

well , in love with POKERFACE(DARK INTENSITY)REMIX !!! DAMN COOL ... plus , also in love with restaurant city and also mafia wars !!! hahas ...

ciao ... haha s bye ...shall post when there is time then ... wishes to all the people out there to study hard and not be like me !!!!

BEING- KOTOKO

2009-04-20T02:39:00.000-07:00

HELLO GUYS ....
it is INDEED a long time that i have posted ... Well , busy at studies since i am in amber ... but i cannot always study but must relax !!! so i decided to post a song which is love-d by me as i am watching SHAKUGAN NO SHANA which is damn cool ...

BEING - KOTOKO

but seriously ar ... i tell you worh ... it is damn nice ... haha ... addicted ...but mid-yr is comin' so must study hard and not slack le ...
Lyrics (eng)

Choose the present moment when our hearts throb faster and we touch each other
Go forward towards the end of time

I murmured in the night of one empty sky after another
The words which said “See you tomorrow”
They are like the sun which shines and illuminates the surroundings
I’m scorched by its strength and eternity

If there is one thing to be left behind
It would be this instantaneous smile which held on to existence
If there is only one thing to be protected, it would be your future

In an instant, choose this world which shakes and tremors
I’ve always soared above the land of fate
I’m secretly hiding the flame which has lit in my heart
I will give my present and future to you

Your narrowed eyes came into my mind first
The endlessly spreading sky
I saw the illusion of you who have found wings on your back
Going far off into the distance

Every time you dressed up coldly
Something is being crushed by a thick sound
Be sure to come across
Every lit up color

I will choose you and the present in which both cannot be replaced
You’ve always worn a rainbow at night
The strength which is certainly there will change into time
I will cross the sky and sea

Choose the present moment when our hearts throb faster and we touch each other
I’m sure we can live for fate
Someday, the disappearing flame will change into wishes
I will give my dreams and future to you…
I will cross the sky and sea…

Lyric(Jap)

akanaru kodou fureau ima erande
susume toki no hate he

potsuri kokuu no you ni tsubuyaita
"mata ashita ne" tte kotoba
moemeguri terasu taiyou no you na
tsuyosa to eien ni kogareta

tatta hitotsu nokoseru nara
sonzai wo daita kono shunkan no egao wo
tada hitotsu mamorubeki wa kimi no mirai

setsuna yurete kishimu kono　yo wo erande
zutto unmei no chi wo kakeru
mebae hajimeta honou mune ni hime
ima wo asu wo kimi he

hosometa　me no saki ni ukan da
hateshinachi nogaru sora
tsubasa mitsuketa kimi no senaka ga
toozakatteku maboroshi wo mita

sokke naku yosoou tabi
nibui oto de tsubusareteku nani ka
sorezore ni tomoshita iro
kousa sasete

kakegae no nai kimi to no ima erande
zutto yoru ni niji wo kakeru
tashikameatta tsuyosa toki ni kae
sora wo umi wo koeru

takanaru kodou fureau ima erande
kitto unmei no ri ni ikiru
itsuka kieiku honou negai ni kae
yume wo asu wo kimi he ...
sora wo umi wo koete ...

Well , Do support !!! and will try to update more with pics ... haha ...

2009-03-06T02:02:00.001-08:00

Hihihi!! :D
Note, this is not WANCHYNG. I'm GRACE, Just helping her to post!!!
See? I'm so nice.... Joking... :P
Due to her busy scedules and her lazy mind,
Wanchyng won't be posting for quite a while.
So well, I'm currently relinking the people that they were asking her to relink.
Quite a long time actually. hehheh.
Well let's see, during PE last thursday, we went to the school's GYM to try out on the equipments.
Mr Rani briefed us on the usage of equipments, quite funny. :)
Then, we're left only 10 minutes to try out the equipments.
Wanchyng and i tried the treadmill.... And it was pretty fun.
A matter of fact, She burned more calories than us. LOL.

dead blog

2009-01-05T23:09:00.000-08:00

hello guys ... well back from SLACKING and MAPLING !!! hahaha ... shocked ar ? see me playing maple ...now that school have start , that means , i am in sec3 and OF COURSE must STUDY . somemore , i am in AMBER class ... which means i have to fight ... but i shall study hard then ... saw some of my bro's fren in Dunearn ... and I MISS MY FRENS !!! ONLY THE SECOND DAY IN SCHOOL ONLY!!!!! but we still can meet de larh ... muhahahah
in prefect duty , i am made a "maid" cos the people , they dont take back their plates . and Jolyn and i have to clean it up ... SAD !!! i hate this kind of people !!! argh!
first day of school , everybody was shocked that i had a haircut ... cos i am always cutting my hair ... but i have no choice de larh ...had a spot check on my skirt ... lucky my was long enough ... i need to buy more school uniform ... currently short of it ... sad ....
3rd ay of school , meet some "retained" sec1s like arron , he retained . and said that i cut my back ? ??? well , i cut off my locks to be more precise . as i like short hair ... at least now , not much people recongise me ... haha ... i m so EVIL !!!
i hate amirul ... he now , talks more than usual ... OMG! gonna be with him for the next 3 yr ... sure die de lah ...

okay ... i shall not talk abt school anymore ... sianzzz
talk abt IE . currently havin IE 7 ... it RAWKS !!! the graphic and wordings are oh-so-nice !!! must have !!! WELL , TRY IT ... haha ...
signing off ... wont update quite often .

hey guys (:

2008-11-23T16:47:00.000-08:00

hey guys ! it have been very long since my last post and ppl are calling me to update b4 it is dead ! well , lets see ... hmmm... it has been 20 days since i post-ed ! (shocked)
well , everyday , the same usual practice ! guess wad ? it is to practice my fingers on playing games , EAT and SLEEP ! seem that all these are getting me fatter !!! OMG !!! must really exercise ... ZZZ ...
everyday , "that guy" have been smsing for me to accept ... but everyday , it is the sae old word . NO ! i really dont like u . so JUST FORGET ME ! nth u do will melt or change my heart . srsly ... stop wasting time on me ... he said that my heart is made of steel and it is very hard to melt. if it is like that , why dont u just give up ? i am already almost giving up on myself ... so just stop wasting time on me ...
20/11
was the collection of my bro results ! T.T and i went to DSS to collect my books ... and it cost $285.05 when actually , it can cost me $260.05 cos i nvr give them the voucher ... sad ... nvm ... i shall use it on books ! hahas ... but the books like very CHIM lor
so must JYJY ... no more slackin'
also , after we collect the results , we went to bugis !!! wanted to go to bugis streets again ... but parent dont let ... sad .... but at least , i bought something ... hehe ...
after that , everyday , my family still deciding on the school he will be going ... and DUNEARN will always be the last choice hahas ....
22 nov
went to meet MEGAN & HUI MIN at the CCK control station . was late -.-''' cos my personal reason ... and they waited for me ... so good .... went to JURONG EAST FAIR PRICE !
miss dewi was there too ... she is sooo .... good ... she even went to give us a 30-min break which the others cannot take ... see ? so good ... hahas ... and we managed to sell 41 tins ... it was the most !!! after that , HUI PING & MARIELYN came ... but MIRANDA was late ... so we all ran away to avoid doing another shift. oh yah ... sayin ant it , i owe$4 to hui min for the lunch ... thanks man ... cos i very kan chiong and then forget to bring money ... O.0
well , a maths tuition start le ... can say it is quite hard for some Q . but i managed to do it le ... hahas ...
sunday , watched "the magician's love" dam nice !!! really like it a lot ... gonna watch it every sunday ... hahas ...
well , i shall end my post and go to facebook le ... gonna go facebook-ing !!! BB !

friends ?

2008-11-04T16:58:00.000-08:00

well , haven been blogging for the while due to some personal reason ... the fact is that i still cant get you out if my head ...

wad have you done to make it so hard ???

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okay ... i shall end it once and for all ...

on the monday and tuesday , cant use comp cos of the ADAM KHOO'S WORKSHOP from 8-5pm ... even though it is long , but , i find it indeed useful in our life ... we were taught and movitated by AMIN and FREDDY THE SEXY !

Amin joked with us abt being fat all these ... i was laughing so much but i found out that he was trying to pull us up from our sleep and telling us tobe serious abt our life and work ...

Amin also said :"if a fat ppl go bang the lorry , the fat ppl will not die but BOUNCED back ! " but is was really indeed funny but the tone he used ...

Freddy (the sexy) talked to us abt our life and goals ... i can feel that he is a serious guy even though his laugh is really funny ! and at the last day , he told us abt wad our did and suffered just to bring us to this world ... i nearly cried ... but no tears came out ... but before we go , freddy asked us whether we are serious . so we went to take the the ribbon and past it to somebody that is true to us ... i went to take it and went back to my seat . and think of giving it to who ... firstly , i was thinking of giving to GRACE ...but in the end , i gave it to CUI LIN ...

the other 2 i still dont know who to give to ... i am just waiting for you ...

i have done so much to help you guys , but did you thank me , NO .maybe you guys are really not my friends ... true friends will be truthful and help others ... but you guys are just waiting to be helped ... maybe in this world , this word"friends" doesnt exist in my dictionary ...

but now , it doesnt matters ... cos i dont care . every year , i will just change my mask , every now and then ...

back !

2008-10-28T18:11:00.000-07:00

hey guys ! how is yr life ? yearning to go to arcade again ! but cant ! realli dont have the feeling to post anything , so this is just a crappy post ! sec 3 is comin ! i really want to study hard but i vant due to me slacking . but i still cant forget you ... but i guess , u have forgotten me . maybe u did it to show me that u dont care anymore ... maybe i should not care but I CANT ... it is very hard for me ...

To forget you: That is the most impossible thing to do.
To forget is just an interpretation. An immeasurable love’s memories can never be wiped off. Time doesn’t devour memories: It just slowly, painfully converts it into fragments of a dream. Occasionally, something will spark the wrath of the dream, and the dream will alter into a memory again.
To forget you. Is not to remember you. Every single detail in life reflects you. Every MRT Station I see, every drink I drink, every shirt I wear. But to forget you, what I have to do is not to remember you: Not to remember that we once_______ at this place, not to remember that we once ______________, not to remember that you ____________.
For now, sinking into a memory of one of the touches you_______ on me, I cannot remember the physical touch, but I can remember the delicacy of it.
Have I forgotten you, ____________? When I tried to forget you, I had just thought of you again. Are you, are you thinking of me now, as my mind revolves with your image, again and again?

It was not a decision based on emotions when you decided to break the news to me. You had thought of it for months: The happiness that we shared, it is never going to last, and if that is so, why still pursue a love that is going to writhe away soon? Why create more happiness, when You know that this ring of glee is going to be part of a memory that you will dearly miss, and I will heartbreakingly forget?
Before I met you, I wondered why all the lyrics in love songs were so exaggerated: Why do lyricists create such mushy and overemotional sentences? Why can’t they just write a good melody without those melodramatic lyrics? That is plain exaggeration.
Before I fell in love with you, I thought romance novels were just so silly: Why would a person cry for another person for hours? How could a person wait for his lover for years? That is plain silliness.
Before we became a couple, I thought romance movies were just so stupid: How could a person love another person so deeply that it became an obsession? How could one sacrifice so much, even to the extent of his own life, for his lover? That is plain stupidity.
When I realized I had fallen so deeply in love with you, I finally understood that songs, novels and movies are just reflections of life, inspired by the writers’ true stories.
Because when You decided to end our relationship, I realized our story mirrors a love song that I once heard, a novel you once read and a movie we once watched.
When I step out of the main door, I love you deeply, but am going to tell me that we are going to separate soon.
The pain is not the separation: The pain is the love that we share; the love that was once so blissful is never going to be refreshed again.The pain is that we are still so much in love, yet we have to let go now. Only someone who had experienced this before will understand.
Isn’t it ironic? It is my profound love for you that brought us together. Now, it is the same profound love that will separate us.
I am thinking of u every hour , minutes , day , night and seconds ... but did u ???

We are separated by a pair of closed gates between us. What you need to do is to push a button on your remote key and the gates will swing open: But if it swings open and breaks off the barrier between the both of us, the gates will hit me as it swing outwards towards me

Breaking the barrier will allow us to be together, but one of us will be hurt. One of us has to give way, and I have volunteered to be the one.

I don’t remember the tears; I only remember the pain.

“You’re like the North Pole of a magnet bar, and I is also like the North Pole of a magnet bar. There’s no way for both of you to be close together. There’s a force that’ll always push you both apart. This force is called the obstacle, like interest differences, communication problems and etc.
“However, if you put a metal bar in between, both you magnets will stick to it. And you’ll be close to each other. That metal bar dissolves the force that pushes both of you away. And that metal bar is what we called love.”

“Alright then, love him while you can. In love, there’s only love or don’t love. Since you love him, do it now.” The old man said.

I realized that everyone had a story to tell: The auntie selling fish soup may have the most romantic love story; my old and stubborn Literature lecturer Mrs Goh may have the most tragic story to tell. Yet I always pondered on the poignancy of my own story, as if my story superseded all of theirs.

If I had one of the abilities of God, I would have chosen to relive my past, and slowly, tenderly, treasuring every single hour, minute and second with you. Every single moment with you.
But it was too late. All too late.
--- adapted from To forget you and i believe you .

Why must I always wear different masks wherever I go?
I am so sick and tired of my life. Who can help me tear away these masks of mine that are lingering in my skin? Why must I play the role of a strong daughter in front of my parents, a smart student in front of my teachers and a contented girl in front of my classmates? Why must I keep on telling everyone around me that I am the best, by putting on the multiple masks of disguise for different people?
This afternoon, I looked into the mirror and realized that I could no longer recognize myself.
My reflection was of a faceless girl, awaiting the next mask to be placed on.Why are we always trying to pose for the best posture for the camera, when we know we can never change reality?

“A few days ago, Sunny and I go into a MRT train. I told her to sit on the chair in front of me, so that we can see each other. But after we sit, many people come in at Raffles Place MRT Station. Then they block my view. I cannot see Sunny anymore. Then at Jurong East MRT Station, all the people go away from the train, and we see each other again. Then Sunny come to me and said ‘See? You’ll just have to wait for me. That’s what true love is all about. Just imagine those passengers as obstacles in our love: They may be blocking us, but I know you’re just in front of me. Nothing on earth can stop our love, okay? If you cannot see me, just wait for me, okay?’."

-- adapted from a photogenic life

"How far will you go for your true love?"

The suffering is momentary; the love is everlasting...
-- adapted from you are here .
i hope you guys will understand the meaning of love . dont let it slip out of yr hands before it is too late .

back again

2008-10-21T22:56:00.000-07:00

hey guys ! it has been a long time that i haven blog le ... 9 days is very long !!! but quite happy and disappointed with my results ! but i feel like i have not mood to do anything at all ... like EMO i guess ... (which BO MUN likes) well , 50% of emo RAWKS ! see ? i m mad from my emo-ing @! !@#$%^&*&%%
well , i guess life is BAD ... guess that better be dead than alive ! hahas... well , been facebooking for all these time with real estate and pet society ...
even though my results are bad ... but guess wad ? i went t0 my fav class ! 3 AMBER ! woohoo ... had a restaurant yest. but was kinda of unorganised that we got a scolding ... IN LOVE WITH ... FALL & I WANTED YOU by INA !
but seriously , i cant stop thinking of you ... if u (my friends) see me smiling , but actually , i m not ... i m just putting on a mask . thats all ... i really dont want to say anything cos i dont have the mood to do it ...
going to see a movie soon !
I M STILL LOVING YOU ... I REALLY CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU ....

help !!!

2008-10-13T18:41:00.000-07:00

I really do not know why but I feel that my heart is really HURTING ! I really do not know what to say but I feel really miserable … without u by my side …
Every minute , every second ,my heart , mind and soul have been thinking about you … and I really don’t know who to pen it on , therefore , I decided to pen it on this … I really have nobody to talk to … I really wished that you are by my side … even though our parents know about it , we must at least face it together … we cant possibly hide it away right ?
But we must face it together ! really … u told me that you will not break with me … but in the end , you still break with me … but do you know how I feel ??? I guess you are really heartless to feel … I really feel like crying out … but to who ? and to cry for who ?
I told myself to stop hanging on to the past and move forward …but however , I just cant do it … seriously … I feel that you are my life … my first stead , even though I break woth him after 7 mths , but after meeting you , my whole life changed … seriously … being your friend to your stead , it is INDEED a wonderful thing … but now , it is like this , I think we better go our own way … I do not wanna us to b hurt so deeply in this way … so , JUST FORGET ME . I understand that you may be heartbroken or watsoeva … but sticking to me , isn’t the way to solve the prob . so yah .. just forget me .
What if you have no tomorrow to look forward to ?
Maybe it’s not about what tomorrow can offer to you , but about what you can offer to today .
– adapted from Low Kay Hwa – I believe you

Now , there is another situation … which concerns my family …
My parents say that my bro go steal my family’s $$$ I do not know why does he want to steal … but my parents say that if he is the one , my mother wants to bring him to the neighborhood police centre . I really do not know why my family have to go to such extend that I do not have anyone to talk to … my bro always do this kind of things . AND , I AM HELPING HIM TO KEEP THIS PROBLEM … I really do not want to have a record … seriously !!! i need comments !!!

oh yah ... i love these pics also ...

2008-10-09T19:54:00.000-07:00

last but not least , the comic that i collected from book 15 to 18 but quite exp . 1 bk cost $8.50 !!! every 4-5 mths then come out seh ...
but i think i will scan and put it up e next time ! cos my printer got prob !!! argh !

i want all these ...

2008-10-09T18:16:00.000-07:00

just say , today , is the 1 month break up with him . IDK wad the reason was , but i wasnt the one who send that msg . seriously . u want to believe or not , IS UP TO YOU . well , today , i got to go to JURONG EAST to collect my book ! which is my fav !!! OMG , well , have to meet Sharon ! wake up so early to blog and blog-shop !!! but another black skinnies a few days ago ... IN LOVE WITH IT ! WILL BE BUYING HOODIES E NEXT TIME ROUND ... as for the exams , overall is == fail fail lorh ... IDC anymore . pass pass lorh ...
cos this year is really slacky for everyone ... IDK wad happened to everyone in class ... but i want everyone to stay together THROUGH THICK & THIN even though we r gonna separate class cos some of us are going to 3 amber , 3 ruby , 3 pearl a , 3pearl b ...
i m sure everyone will miss each other ... but we must try to spend the time together better !
but we must still have the time we spend together in OUR HEART !
we spend 1N3 , 2PearlA ... wad is next ?
talking abt exam , some of the papers are hard man ! but try your best to wish for excellent marks !
now , i want these items ! hope you guys can give me !

yup ... these are all for now .

got some pic ....

2008-09-11T02:47:00.000-07:00

just came to post some pics and will be off ... i got 3 school photo and 1 YLA PIC
cos like very blur so here to make it clearer ! havent got all the pics so , just post for fun lorh ...

school formal , very odd . but at least better than last yr .
2007

2008

now . fun shot .
2007
(but i only have 1 )( hehe )

2008 (fun shot 1)

(fun shot2)

sorry but no offence ... but amirul really look like a gorrila ! u see the face , you know de ... haha ...

but as for me and many class mate . we changed a lot ...

now , YLA pic !

our camp theme !!!

damn loved the camp !!!
now , let you see a clip ...

now is the skit !!!

cheer !!!

farewell vid.

YLA3 RAWKS LIKE HELL !!!

2008-09-01T20:32:00.000-07:00

well , at there met a few new frens ... they are fr mayflower and st andrew ...
from st andrew met BO MUN , JUSTIN (CAN SAY IS BESTIES AT THERE BAH )COS THEY ARE ALSO SHORTIES !!!! HAHAS * NO OFFENCES*
pictures , will upload nxt time .
3D2N camp !!! cool !

have nth to say . so yarh ... talk nxt time hehe ... lol bb

long time no post le

2008-08-25T03:10:00.000-07:00

ouh ... kays here to post again bah ...
actually , in life , there is ups and downs
but as of the name of CHAN WAN CHYNG !
i shall perserve ???
i shall start my story why i said it now ...
actually , due to this , i was saddened ...and i dont want to put my heart into it anymore !
from sec one to now , you can see that i have done a lot for GG ...
but did they like even care ???
NO!
sec1 was okay until when i came to sec 2 .
sec1 , i went to the PLTC . but that was to train me to be a PATROL LEADER ... i was prepared for it .
but when 20/08/2008 my heart BROKE DOWN !
they had a piece of paper in their hands . i was wondering wad it is until when SIMIN sat with me and i took the paper to have a look when i found that i am the Treasurer of GG !
that is why b4 the CCA start , i heard Her sayin my name for wad treasurer ...
i am very disappointed by it really ...
but how can this be ????
Jaslyn , Jia Ying , You Min and me went for the PLTC . but in the end , they became the PS and PL ... and me ? only the title of TREASURER !
even though it came out already ... nth can change already ...
that is why , SIMIN and i chatted all the way home ... we were all disappointed ... so i decided to fight for COMPANY LEADER ! even if i bcum , i will nt have the title ...
and like it is very unfair ...
if you are in my soes , you can feel how i feel de ...
YOU WILL BE VERY DEPRESSED BY IT .
and today , i decided to tell HUI MIN that she is one of the PS . she was very happy le ... then i tell her that i never bcum one of it , her face like still BLODLY happy .. wtf ?! lorh .. just cos u got a title so wad ? that doesnt mean you can boast around with it right ? you got a title le ,m still want to fight for the Company Leader , and my timing and everything is so perfect , how can i not be the PS or PL ??? just cant believe it ! now , i just want to focus on being the top 4 . my heart is now not in here anymore ... EVEN IF U GIVE ME , IT IS TOO LATE ... reallt tired of all these TORTURE ! really had enough le ... be all you wahnt bah ... IDC anymore !
so i want to be the TOP 4 OF THE STUDENT COUNCIL !

shopping

2008-08-10T02:36:00.000-07:00

yup :) him and me went shopping and we ate at MOF @lot one with all my ex-peers at lot one
was lik very malu
but i love that day very much !
we walk-ed a very big round at there ...
i also cannot find my friends !
we walk-ed and bought a rubik cube which is like only 4 cube at a side . i want to train ! was actually very blur -sotong then okok le .,..
me and him actually holded hand for a very long distances !
then went home to use the comp !

then ... sat ..
my family and i want to Isetan cos we got the voucher !
we went to eat at Din Tai Fang ! i love the sago dessert ! 10 star !
then went to the first Isetan which gt the Espirit ... went to a corner EDC by Espirit ! i love the MTV 2008 malaysia jacket , but was costing $80 ! but dont have my size 111 sad ... went to another one but there dont have so give up ! but bought a nike shoe . was actually costing $148.75 . but bought it at $89.22 which was 60 % discount ! nike Zoom !!!! thanks man !

blogging when sickkk

2008-08-10T02:04:00.000-07:00

miranda(gor) and me !

me , miranda(gor) and hui min(mummy) !

we are the beggars !
miranda and me decides to be gays ! so yup ! we are guys ! and hui min to be our mummy !!! it was so fun !
yup the pics ... i got it from my fren ...
the pics , i suck !!! 0.O
at that time , i was very sick but still have to JYJY !!!
right now nth to do so here ,to blog ! maybe my dearest cousin comin ! can ask for help in maths !
oh ... no ! my bro came bk from the PSP party le ... my life gonna be rule without FREEdom !!! OMFG !!!

i love you ! my dear

just a outsider

2008-07-28T21:00:00.000-07:00

yup hereeeee to post but really dint have the feeling to blog but will be like very lazy . hence dont wan ppl to nag , will be posting right now .
yup :D right now in the school comp lab 1 blogging during Pw but co s we finish all our work , blog lor .
i am really tired . !!!!! i am really stressed ...
as for the project , they say that they got do but ah... hem ! it was me . i spent the whole time infront of the comp and at the end wad did i get ? a thank you of TY onli . can you feel how m i ???????????????????????? i realli hate it .
for example the class t-shirt . i was the one that wanted the idea of making it . but then they decided to have it then later they like left me out . i have been suffering everyday . even junhao also keep asking me but i keep quiet but i tried to sleep , but cannot so i keep crying my self to sleep . CAN SUMBODY JUST HELP ME ?????????????????????????
I M REALLI TIRED . REALLI tired .
but now is no use . i m just a outsider in the real world ,. nth can change the facts now .
but there is 1 line that i can tell you .
I HATE YOU . THERE IS NTH MORE THAT IS LEFT FOR ME IN THIS WORLD .
MY HEART IS DEAD NOW .
YOU TALK BAD ABT ME , I WILL DO THE SAME TOO . just watch out .

immm back :D

2008-07-24T23:30:00.000-07:00

well , really dont have the feeling to blog actually . but seems that my blog is dead ! hence , i shall blog !
well , wad shall we start ????????
well , we had a ndp rehearsal ! actually , it was very fun . but some ppl go cock up . so more the "special" stuff! boooo.....
well , i was really pissed off everyday . really but it was due to some reason and ppl . but i dont wan to mention their name cos like nth to say abt them . now , everyday is very busy and can say that i will forget wad i want to say .
OH!!!!! CRAP!!!!! see ? now , i forget wad i want to say .; so shall end here .
by the way , i will be making a personal class tee for myself and will be making 1 for the gals too!!!
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just when to find blogskin cos my bro liked gundam ! hence , i fell in love with it !!!! ILY gundam !
will be putting up pictures of gundam with details which i want my life to be !

so... cute !

i wish i could be like them ... together forever...

cool!

so sweet ...

forever love

looks like couple!

together once again !

wedding...

the night looks so emo ... like me

athrun

will continue the next time :D

yup ... bck again ! was actually sick but just dont want to lay down in my bed to be a lazy pig so here to blog + eating potato chips even though i m yawning !!!!yup ... just as i promised . photos .

cool logo !

look fiery ...

into the darkness world

couple

very serious

the main characters

the gals

the pilots

presents

good couples

1 day , i might go mad

that is all . ILY very much !!!!!!

my blog is soooo DEAD !

2008-06-18T01:40:00.000-07:00

thanks to AUBREY ! she remind me abt the blogging life !
well , i have completely gotten over him and even though i know that it is hard . SEVEN MONTHS !!!! u feel larh . NO OFFENCES ! HAHAS
well , when i went to malaysia . i have the warmth of my family even though i m very sad . to my malaysia family : I LOVE YOU GUYS 100000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000000 TIMES TILL I DIE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
at there , yun yun was so cuter and stronger ! he is also so guai ! all bcos of me ! haha
yan yan was very funny and we played the millionaire , my bro win all . yan yan and me own the bank 22,000 and 40,000 to the bank respectively .
well , fong fong was so busy bcos she have tution almost all day ! i saw her room was filled with all mountains of books !
my mum , cooked all for us . well . i cooked some too ... i also got many recipes from my grandmother .
at there , we got chewing gums and bubble gums . i didnt eat cos of my braces . but it was fun there . i also went to their lan shop to play GTA = grand theft auto !
i wished that singapore lan shop have GTA ! but too bad they dont have . it was so damn cool . VICE CITY !
at there , i also bought something ! a black skinnies ! which cost 69.90RM =$35 only ! and my bro bought a lot of clothing !
OMFG ! i m so HYPER ... NOT ... LOLOLOLOL
now busy doing geog project and listening to songs !!!
also damn pissed off at alex , jun hao , byron and grace !
they all , i sms them and tried to talk to them at msn , they seem not to bother me !!! I HATE U GUYS !!!!
btw , since that i can concluded that i m being hated , so wad is the use of me living in this world ?!
i have already decided to change places in my seating arrangement .
i want to sit in the 2nd column , 2nd row !!!! bcoz i want to be a guai kia now . be serious in my work and get good class and level position for EOY ! i want to be in the top 5 ! yes !
my aim was to take POA , BIO , CHEM , ENGLISH , HOMEC , CHINESE , GEOG , E MATHS , A MATHS . will be soon trying out a lot of assessment book . which is 'N' & 'O' level . then go to nanyang poly . then study for a dipoma then a master then a degree then be a professor . like Dr .... that is my wish . i really hope to get it . even though my dream from sec 1 is to go to express , but i know that my standard is not possible . so now my dream is to be forever a pearl class !!!! even though it is 5 years but it is worth it !!! as we can slowly absorb in the knowledge !
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while , eating , i m here to blog for FUN !!!!! i have many things to do . PULL UP LY SOCKS !!!
i have to rush up my geog project . even though the deadline is 30 june 2008 . but i m sure that lo tin chee will ask for it on the first day of school . confirm. he never tell us how to do . then we how to do ???????
there was another incident . byron asked me to bring a water container to school which he gave me as a bdae present . then now he want it back . really WTF RITE ? GIVE PPL A BDAE PRESENT THEN WANT BACK . MUST AS WELL DONT TAKE . I STUPID RITE ? BODOH ! HE WANT ME TO BRING IT TO SCHOOL . wtfwtfwtfwtf!!!!!!
if u bring it to school . u got face a not ?! i like that sure will have no face . but then u must think that i m a prefect . a lot of ppl know me . esp. in bus leh . if u bring that thing to school sure no face . and then bdae present u give alr then should not take back . and u should know that today is the only day that i m free . cos tmr , i have to attend something . and it is the whole day . i give u next tuesday at lot one after school . buit the time , i set . you shpould know that a guai kia schedule very busy ... see my dream u know le . I ATE U I HATE U I HATE U IHATE UUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU.
not angry animore ! hahas
less than a day , will be mrs luke's birthday ! and farewell party !!!!
and also my anti-drug course . we will be buying her a present +banner and a oard to write our wishes . !!! we cannot possibly wear guides uniform go . so we bring our clothes go and change at the mrt toilet . actually planned to wear the guides tee to show mrs luke that we LOVE guides !
u r a great teacher t me ! i will surely miss u . but try to come back and visit us kay ? without u , my grades will sure drop . !!! true ! but i will study very hard to let u be happy . and be proud of my grades ! it is a bet ok ?
iloveuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. will miss u too ! do rmb us okae ? tmr will be the happiest day of your lifeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!we promised !i shall give mrs luke a present on the behalf of n3 !!!! to n3 --> no need to pay me or wad ever , but just be happy for mrs luke and study hard !!!
well , shall end here ! be happy !

It's over !

2008-05-30T22:43:00.000-07:00

it Over at this morning ...

at 10.20 am , we told each other that we are not-suitable for each other .

even though i know that we have each other for 7 months , i treasured it very much .

throughout all these months , u have showered me with all your love but it is just that that kind of "feel" wont last forever ... i hope u understand ...

it is like once u do not have the feel , u will not want to continue . like for example ; a pen . once u found it , you will start using it but when another pen appears , u will grab it . then the other pen will be left at shelf .

i hope u understand .

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another thing is that ...

is Grace Ho

yes . is she .

when we are together , i cannot help but to keep it within my heart .

it is like grace is trying all ways to attracts yr attention . didnt u see ?

all these problems , i told it to matthew only . i find that he is the only one that can keep the problem . all these time , i find that your are drifting apart from me ... that is why i want to end it . the earlier we end it , so that the blow will not be so hard . all these time that i have been with u , i feel really hurt ... really . and all the times that she tried to interfer , i always kept my eyes closed ... it is like i m always lying to myself . if i m lying to myself , i will be kept in the darkness . can u feel it ?
but now it is too late ... nothing can be done to cure that slash in my heart ... i guess my true love will help me amend it ... [someday...]
i guess we are from different world and that is why all these happened ... i guess all these are obstacles by heaven's will ...
i shall end here and hope that true love can be found ...
and maybe grace and u can be together ...